Below are the 25 most recent journal entries.
" HEY !!! "
another x-mas card
You're a very SPECIAL FRIEND , Friendship is a special gift that gives the heart a year-round lift
December 7 , 2004
Dearest SHY and family ,
" Friendship is one of life's happiest gifts when it's shared with someone as wonderful as you . "
PHOEBE and ACHILLES and ANDREI
Dear Ninang SHY ,
May this Christmas brings you a wonderful and Happy Life . Hope Sayaka is fine and in the best of health . Ask about us we're doin fine and mommy is doin great too . Tito Teddy and tita Ruth will be having their wedding on Dec 20 , mommy and daddy will be one of the "abays" hope you're here so you will be one of them too .
For sure tito Ching will attend their wedding just like the wedding of tito Ram and tita Glenny last Sept . Tito Ching was here and he wants to say that he misses you so much .
Just give my hugs and kisses to SAYAKA .
ARCHIE ( Phoebs eldest son )
Hey , Christmas is here !
a birthday card from a friend
happy birthday to me
Yesterday , November 26 , was my birthday ... i just turned 29 , matured at age but very much young at heart ... hahahaha !
Had a simple dinner last night together with my family at 'Jonathan's Diner', no particular event coz we had to get home early for it's too cold and my preggy sickness strikes again .
To sum it all , papa gave me a pair of earrings as a gift and my pretty adorable Sayaka sang a birthday song for me ! ... oh how sweet ! ... that was the greatest gift i'd ever had in my 29 years , not to mention that i did'nt blow the candles in my cake but my baby Sayaka did !
That was my sweet , memorable birthday .
happy birthday papa
Just came home from a dinner date with papa and Sayaka , it's papa's natal day so we had this simple family celebration .... simple dinner in 'Cook-yu-han-ten' , a chinese family cuisine . After dinner we had to leave the place immediately coz i was'nt feeling good again , my 'preggy sickness' strikes again . That's for tonight coz I'm really so tired .... goodnight !
no activities at all
" on the way again "
Yesterday me and Sayaka attended Yutaka's birthday party , my cousin turned 10 and bigger than his age . Me and my tita Terry dont talk much coz we had a long time fight and the relationship does'nt worked out well , she's my only relative here in Japan but we're not that close at present ... i hate her for being so bossy and pakialamera of my life ... she hates me for not listening her dictatorship , we are a world apart and very much incompatible in opinions in life ... i wish her to mind her own business and let me handle mine ! ... she's not my mother for goodness sake !
Mood: pissed off
value of love
" A certain friend gave me this amazing story that made me think , feel and comprehend the value of life and the love itself ..... "
VALUE OF LOVE
Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived ; Happiness , Sadness , Knowledge , and all the others , including Love . One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean . So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave .
Love was the only one that stayed . She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment . When the island was almost totally under , love decided it was time to leave . She began looking for someone to ask for help . Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat .
Love asked , " Richness , can i come with you on your boat ? " Richness answered , " I'm sorry , but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere " . Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel . Love cried out , " Vanity , help me please . " " I can't help you " , Vanity said , " You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat . "
Next , Love saw Sadness passing by , Love said , " Sadness , please let me go with you . " Sadness answered , " Love , I'm sorry , but , i just need to be alone now . " Then , Love saw Happiness . Love cried out , " Happiness , please take me with you . " But Happiness was so overjoyed that he did'nt hear Love calling to him .
Love began to cry . Then , she heard a voice say , " Come Love , I will take you with me " . It was an elder . Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name . When they arrived on land the elder went on his way .
Love realized how much she owed the elder . Love then found Knowledge and asked , " Who was it that helped me ? " " It was Time ", Knowledge answered . " But why did Time help me when no one else would ? " Love asked .
Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity , answered , " Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is . "
[ ... dedicated to my friend Tinsel and all the people in love ... hoping for the greatest value of LOVE in their hearts ... ]
" I made a call again ... this time to someone special ... am i crazy ? it's a long miles away from home , not to mention the cost ! ... it's an overseas call silly !
The prize of hearing just the voice of someone special's a burden to one's pocket ! ... hay , it's my life ... anyway , I'm happy ! and the feeling i have now is priceless ! "
" a secret letter "
Dear ------- ,
O-henji o kako to omoinagara , tsui kaki-sobirete shimaimashita .O-yurushi kudasai . Ikaga o-sugoshi desu-ka ? Benkyo wa do desu ka ?
Watashi-tachi wa mina genki desu . Sayaka ga ni-sai ni narimashita . Eigo to Nihonggo issho-kemmei ni shaberimasu , musume wa totemo genki desu . Watashi wa saikin PC ni kyomi o mochi-hajimete imasu .
Anata no koto itsumo kangaemasu , wasuraremasen . Ima made , aishitemasu .....
Dozo , o-karada ni o-kiotsukete , o-sukoyaka ni o-sugoshi kudasai . Jikan ga arimashitara , o-tayori kudasai .
At long last I'm okey now , glad to be back again ... back from a week of agonising pain , a week of boredom and anxiety , a week of disgusting pain that crippled my mind , a week that i dont want to remember at all .
I'm here again starting to recuperate , physically , mentally and emotionally (?)...
The past days taught me a lesson , a lesson about loving first no other than myself ... i have to take good care of myself first before i could take good care of others , or else i could'nt function at all .
" typhoon "
Today is a typhoon tuesday , you cannot hear anything rather than the angry blowing of the wind , the struck of the lightning , the hot and humid air , the softness pouring of the rain ..... why is it that 'she's' so angry ? what is it that 'she' wants ? why is it that 'she' wants to destroy everything ?..... she's uncontrollable like hell , the emotionless freak , the monster of it's own and a menace to evryone .
Yet despite everything ... she kept me think , think of something unusual ... 'the beauty inside of it' ... she's like a woman of excitement , a woman in-needs , a woman with fears , a woman with mixed feelings and emotions ..... always in search and in-search ... searching for something who has'nt there , unsearchable , and maybe searching for something did'nt exist at all .
This never ending searching makes her wild , disturbed , emotionless , frightened , and in pain ... the hurt is unmeasurable , satisfaction is beyond the limit of it's own .
Typhoon is like people , always in search , search and in-search ... always rotates for finding happiness , showing their wits and wickedness , their dreams and aspirations , their braveness and weakness , their pain and emotions ..... their hatred ? .... and their Love .
" ...the last letter ... "
" funny sunday "
" ... i have some funny article here ... i found it in a certain newspaper , the author is unknown ... "
MADE IN JAPAN
A japanese businessman went to Australia.He hailed a cab (Ford) at the airport to take him to his downtown hotel , which was a considerable distance away . During the journey , a Honda drove past the taxi . The japanese businessman leaned out of the window excitedly and yelled , " Honda , very fast ! Made in japan ! " then smugly smiled at the driver .
After a while , a Toyota sped past the taxi . Again , the japanese man leaned out of the window and yelled , " Toyota , very fast !Made in japan !" ... displaying the same condescending smile . And then a Mitsubishi sped past the taxi .
For the third time , the japanese leaned out of the window and yelled , " Mitsubishi , very fast ! made in japan ! " The driver was a little angry , but he kept quiet . Finally , the taxi arrived at the hotel . The fare was AUS $300 .
The japanese businessman exclaimed , "Wah ... so expensive ! " The driver , with a satified smirk on his face replied , " Meter , very fast ! Made in Japan ! "
" windy wednesday "
" ... konnichiwa , it's windy wednesday but still the weather is hot and humid ... " mushi-atsui " as we call it ... the smell of fall is a little bit far away , but i'm waiting for it to come soon ... i don't know but there's magical thing about it ... it's the falling of leaves i think ? ...
I have something here to defined true frienship :
FRIENDS A to Z
(A)ccept you as you are ; (B)elieves in you ; (C)alls you up to say "hi" ; (D)oes'nt give up on you ; (E)nvisions the whole of you ; (F)orgive your mistakes ; (G)ives unconditionally ; (H)elps you ; (I)nvites you over ; (J)ust be with you ;(K)eeps you close at heart ; (L)oves you for who you are ; (M)akes the difference in your life ; (N)ever judges ; (O)ffers support ; (P)icks you up when your down ; (Q)uiets your fear ; (R)aises your spirits ; (S)ays nice things about you ; (T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it ; (U)nderstands you ; (V)alues you ; (W)alks beside you ; (X)plain things you don't understand ; (Y)ells at you when your not listening ; (Z)apps you back to reality .
" a poem "
" ... i made this poem last July 30 , 2004 ... "
( shy of jspy )
I was holding him so close
i could feel the pounding of his heart
the man i was longing to hold
of this foolish heart of mine ,
I can't and i must'nt
do what it wants
but this foolish heart of mine
take what it wants ,
I want to tell the world
how crazy i am
to feel the painful love
of this foolish heart of mine ,
I can and i must
do what it told
for this foolish heart of mine
make one's life behold .
( dedicated to someone so " dear " )
8/14 sat - (for the record) my family went out for lunch , groceries and vidoes ... papa got this weird film "underworld" (vampire movie), he loves horror movies you know ... the big contrast of my likes ,(romance), anyhow we watched it together , otagaisama ... midnight comes ... i watched olympics live from Greece,Athens ... my favorite Ryoko Tani won a gold medal for 48 kg Judo - women , she's awesome ! ... this 5'ft gal can throw a 6 footer one ... where did she got those strenght ? ... wish i could be like her ...
8/15 sun - thats today ! ... doing nothing , just watching t.v., videos and dvds ...